How is it possible that everything I ever dreamed of is gone? and everything is just one thing?
I just wanted one thing! one thing! How in the world is it possible that that one thing is out of my reach. I can't even see it? can't even imagine it!
I don't think it is possible to hurt anymore, to hate anymore, to envy anymore, to be anymore frustrated.
to pretend anymore.
I just wanted to be a mother. That is all I wanted. I would have traded every moment of happiness in my life to just have that one.
My heart is broken and no one can possibly understand. Can you?
~ele
I love you. I am so sorry you are hurting for this. All I ever wanted was a daughter. After what happened to me when my husband left me, got her pregnant and had their girl....I thought it would never happen. Somehow, someway...now Sophie is here. Miracles do happen. I don't think it is too late for you. Now the one thing I want (well that I have wanted since forever) is to be in love. Love you....
ReplyDeleteI completely get this. That is all I wanted. And I feel the same. It seems so out of reach. I feel like it will never happen for me. I feel like my one desire will never be fulfilled. :( I try to have hope, but sometimes it seems so futile. I'm sorry you are hurting. It's amazing to me that I'm not alone in this. That we have such similar feelings. It's so helpful to read you blog. So often it feels like what you write is coming directly from my heart.
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