I still dont know how to get through this.
The waves of emotion come and go and I find myself confused on my decision.
I know it is the right one but why do I still feel so emotional?
Packing my life and realizing how much of it is from our life together is like a constant reminder of the dream that can't come true.
The life unfulfilled and the walls that are closing in on it.

Sometimes I feel better, sometimes I feel worse, mostly I just feel like hiding.

~el